Books and too many hobbies
Getting rid of a bunch more, but I'm feeling too lazy to type them up right now.
How is it that I can get rid of half a bookshelf worth of books and not have gained more than a shelf's worth of space? They all came off the bookshelf...
*sighs and pokes moodily at the pile of books*
I've weeded out most of the ones that are relatively easy to let go... if I want to free up any more space it only gets harder from here. I'm torn between stuff-swapping what doesn't get claimed, and seeing how much money or trade in credit I can get.
Too much stuff. *sighs* Too many hobbies really... but I can't decide which to get rid of. The ones I'm least invested in are the easiest to give up, but they also take up the least amount of room, freeing up at most a box's worth of space.
There's my library of course
Music (instruments and music books)
Gardening (most of that is outside at least, and what is inside is mostly books)
Weaving
Crochet
Embroidery
Sewing (Takes up lots of space)
Beadwork/jewelry making
Painting/drawing
Computers
Games
Cooking
Costuming (Takes up lots of space)
Theatrical makeup
Magic
Hiking/Camping
Worst part of it is... I spend most of my time not doing anything of note. I could be absolutely brilliant in more than one of my hobbies if I had been doing something with that time instead of being lazy. The other problem is that I'm good at all my hobbies, if not amazing. Good enough that it seems a waste to turn my back on something I like and am good at. But then... I'm not doing anything with them now. Or not much. I poke at cooking and painting here and there.
There are only a handful of individual things that I am specifically attached to, most of them irreplaceable, most of which have been lost in my countless moves. The rest is just too much clutter and junk that only becomes something else when it is being used for a purpose. The beads that are only useful if they are being used. Some days I could almost wish I was one of those focused and driven people who pursue only one or two passions. Sometimes I think my house would be just as full, but all focused on one thing instead of several.
I have a dream of my gypsy wagon, which having been designed needs only to be checked for any errors in design and then built. Then I look around me and try to figure out how to fit everything important inside and can't see how to make it work. Maybe I'll forgo the blank canvas and paint upon the walls instead. Sew my bedding and my clothes and bring only what I can use to sew by hand. Most gardening gets left behind but for my pots of herbs, but there will be room somehow for every last one of my instruments. Beading and embroidery, even my small hand loom can surely be tucked into corners. Maybe in the end I won't be able to pare my life down until I have my Vardo built and waiting. Maybe the answer is to outfit it and then get rid of all the rest. Maybe. *sighs* But to take it anywhere, I must be able to drive. So many things in life come back to that... and yet somehow I never seem to do anything about it. Maybe I just need to go get my permit once again and just start posting "hey, I've got a day free here, anyone available and willing to give me a driving lesson?" It'd have to work better than what I'm doing now, which is pretty much nothing.
And all of this? This is why I haven't been writing much. I sound like a broken record... "no life, too much stuff, need to learn to drive, and insert rant about financial aid at my college here." There's only so often anyone wants to hear the same laments before they want to beat me about the head and stop offering sympathy. I know all the things I "ought" to be doing to fix all this, but my will to get it done doesn't seem to win out over general exhaustion and apathy most of the time. So that's the great update of me, I suppose. Doesn't cover all the details, but it gets to the heart of it. For those who are curious about such things, I do have a part time job ushering at the Seattle Rep, I'm enrolled in Highline's Library Tech program for Winter Quarter (there's a rant in that, but I'm not going to go into it right now), and I am in the market for additional work. I want my job back in MN. I don't really want to leave the house, but if someone pulls me out of it, I'll probably enjoy myself.
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